Wednesday, January 26, 2005


why i don't trust men .. thanks funny guy Posted by Hello

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

thank you for the song present george thomas :).. i've never got one of those before
- damien rice-the blowers daughter
I'm drinking from my saucer,
'Cause my cup has overflowed.

:)
[courtesy- saby's blog]
always be suspicious of free stuff

Monday, January 24, 2005

how the old ladies discuss and defend their faith [no one is attacking it mind you]

Sunday, January 23, 2005

post for kenneth

*smile* i'll tell you then.

my grandparents lived on god's hill,in a place called nakre.nakre means 'mother of pearl' after the mother of pearl shell. it's hot, so HOT over there, except when it rains. then there are streams which flow down the rocks and form rivulets around them and just go all over the property..and fish.. there are tiny fish in these seasonal streams that come and nibble at your fingers if you keep still long enough.you can even catch one with your hand if you're fast enough.
there's a lime business too... i suppose that's more lucrative than farming.. so there's always a hugh pile of shells at the end of the red mud drive[which has trees on either side]
in the summer. time drags on. you can finish a book three times as fast as you could have if you were in bangalore.no one makes you do anything there.. one week seems like three and you try to stay in that part of the house which has a wooden roof and a fan. not the front part which has asbestos for roofing, because asbestos absorbs heat and only makes it hotter.
the bathroom used to be outside. and to heat water there was this HUGE cauldron fixed onto a wood fire stove. lol the bathing area was next to the buffalo shed, so you were never alone when you were having a bath. next to the bathroom was another room. a store room of sorts, where there was only wood.. and a chicken that used to go there to lay eggs.
the buffaloes.. there were five maybe...i used to like to feed them, but my uncle used to tell me not to go near they'd bite me :D..at least thats what i imagine he meant.. because he like almost everyone else there, only speaks konkani and i don't.
there were bananna trees,i never liked the yelakebala banannas, but there was the bananna nectar... and there were tamarind trees... my favourite. there are mango trees everywhere. the best mangoes though are the ones that you don't cut. you make a hole in it and suck the juice out
my grandparents... my grandfather[aana], he was relatively tall and fair with grey eyes [ you occasionally get that sort there]and white hair.. my grandmother [mai] was his opposite.. short and dark with black hair and bad eyesight i think... my mom says that she refused every proposal that came until my grandfather.. and then she would have no one else :)
my grandmother, who had either lost her memory or eyesight by the time i was old enough to talk to her, used to look at me and say 'bari sobeeth danth' [beautiful teeth] lol becaus she didn't have any by then, i think [hehe my mom would be really annoyed if she saw that, you can't say things like that about your grandmother]
that's all for now...
k

a lot of amateur[entertainer] foreigners like to practise on the beach-kudle beach Posted by Hello

night falling Posted by Hello

star fish Posted by Hello

far end-kudle beach Posted by Hello

sunrise at kudle beach i imagine.*sigh* Posted by Hello

a few feet above the arabian sea Posted by Hello

advice from mamma

.. when you go away to work, spend only a quarter of your salary.save everything else.. you still have a long way to go... and don't waste your sunday[today]... go to church and pray for wisdom.
[kan- *hits head agains wall*]

Saturday, January 22, 2005

i miss the smell of wood fires and cowdung and hay... my smell memories :)

gokarna.. pictures after all! :D Posted by Hello

Friday, January 21, 2005

i think sometimes some boys go out with a pretty face and then leave for a prettier face.... and the boy will be really ugly too...*shrugs.. looks around with a 'what is THAT??' look on face*

note for my boyfriend stealing bitchface friend

if he likes you more than he likes her and YOU like him more than you like her, then the two of you should be together ;)

lol, hug

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Thursday, January 20, 2005


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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

ok i'm sick , i'll admit it.
so dadda comes it and decides that i have to take a blue tablet. the following conversation ensues:
dad-you have a viral infection
me- tablet? TABLET?! i'm not taking a tablet. i don't take tablets. i'll take cough syrup. mamma gave me cough syrup.
mom- [from some corner of the house]- she doesn't have viral infection
me- i have a cough and an infection. it's because i had salt water up my nose for two days and i didn't dry off either after i got out of the ocean.i didn't catch an infection from someone.
dad- ok don't take the tablet. it's your funeral
..ohh haven't i had THAT conversation a thousand times before
dad-*walks away with the tablet still in his hand and not in my stomache, thank you very much*


so ..another day, another war, another pointless post ...

word of advise

[ANOTHER TIME GUEST APPEARANCE ON THE BLOG - again- Samir Latif]
A wise old woman told me once.. that not all camels are your friends... some even go an extra mile and spit at you..just make sure they were eating a fresh mint or something before they do ..cause it stinks..
but remember in early Arabian days a spit on the face was considered to be a good gesture..
wonder what they do when they are actually angry with you???? GIVE YOU A BUNCH OF FLOWERS??? OH BOY NOW YOU IN TROUBLE!!!

I just realised something.. you may know someone for 15 years or so...and there may be a time when you wish(AND ACTUALLY MIGHT) JUST KILL THEM.. cause they refuse to understand that things have changed between you and them and that you don’t think on the same lines anymore...but when they do and really do understand where you come from and that everything is ok............... spit back at them...

Hey its all good!!!!
its nothing but love
samir latif

i came !! i saw and i think i conquered!!!!

[ONE TIME GUEST APPEARANCE ON THE BLOG -Samir Latif]
you are nothing...trust me when i say this..you are the mud under my shoes..you think you know everything?? i doubt that!!! there are people who know much more than you, yet you think you are so smart...!!!! haha that’s a joke..
when you talk you think that people are listening..no they are not..they are just wondering what time they are going to leave and go back to their pathetic world with their little homes and minimum wages, go back and pet their little dogs and cats.. feed their pet snakes and be content.. they don’t wanna listen to you... you are nothing to them. yet you walk around with your head up high saying you own the world and its your oyster... RUBBISH!!!!
who do you think you are???? GOD??? YOU ARE NOT THE CHOSEN ONE TO LEAD ALL MAN KIND.. YOU ARE NOT THAT SPECIAL KID!!! .. you need to work..... WORK HARD... to be special...WORK BLOODY FREAKING HARD... GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT... BUT IT TAKES TIME..
A LOOOONNNGGG TIME.....
BUT IT COMES..
I AM JUST SAYIN THIS CAUSE I CARE.. I CARE FOR THE FACT THAT I DONT WANT TO BE IMBARRESED WHEN I WALK NEXT TO YOU...
calm yourself down its not that bad.. don’t cry about it..it will be ok...trust me..relax.. have tequila with a worm in it..

now i am going to stop staring at this stupid mirror and get ready to work


Samir Latif
i think that family is family, irrespective...and sometimes friends are family.....irrespective...

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

you didn't understand what i was trying to say, you just didn't
I saw the sky and the milkyway, I saw the ocean and the hills ..they were so big..and I was so small and I was in awe of them and I remembered what Emmanuel said....he said, God...... is bigger that that
.
Mamma's just given me an actifed in a sneaky attempt to knock me out and make me go to bed. I'm soo sure!! *indignant look*....*sheepish afterthought* err or maybe she's just concerned about the fact that I'm coughing and sneezing and is just being a mom and looking after me *looks down and sheepishly accedes that that must be the case*

Monday, January 17, 2005

a going away of sorts..and i'm going ouch, as if i'm going to leave someone behind and i don't understand. there's no logic :) there never was. and yes i'm talking about an actual person :). i wish.... the same thing over and over[stupid wishing :)] i'm happy, right now i'm happy. i'm listening to music i like[mostly], i've got a terrible cold and i'm happy. i can pretty much do whatever i want. my sister's have gone away and my parent's leave me alone [mostly]... for now this is enough
i came out of my trip bruised and cut and tired and paining and happy.. yes happy :)
the predominant smell for the day is vicks
i think asphyxiation sounds like a nice word
i'm sick and i can't breathe and the only thing i want to do is be cranky *frown* *glare*
and i also want hot and sour chicken soup, which i'm going to get ..till then *cranky puss face*
i don't claim to understand,i'm not even going to try

Sunday, January 16, 2005

back from gokarna

end result of my trip:
body FULL paining
still feel like i'm on a boat at sea [rocking motion persists]
BIG SMILE on face
Chumma Belting =D

the trip was awesome :), wouldn't have missed it for the world

Thursday, January 13, 2005

bangalore is filled with lunatic drivers.. my self included... except that in my case, it's merely an attempt to try and fit in
my father dutifully neglected to tell my mother that he had given me permission to go to gokarna.. she found out today when i reminded them both that i was leaving tonight.. my mom's ears pick up when she hears the word leaving.'leaving!?' she says. 'no, you don't have to go.' i immediately retort, 'i'm going' i point at my father and say, ' dadda gave me permission haha'. the word trekking somehow enters the conversation. mamma takes one look at me and decides that i don't eat enough to warrant a trek. walk around the block for exercise she says...*roll eyes up*.. so all objections aside, if all goes well i should be gone by tonight.. unfortunately no camera to take with me :(
k

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

i have a very very spaced out family...

....and i think i'm spending too many waking hours at home these days.. i seem to be noticing a lot of things about my [woo hoo, spaced out, gone in the head]family.
My parents have the most undeniably stupid arguements.
ok, so the sister has been successfully sent off to bombay to catch a flight to detroit.. or wherever it is that she needs to go.. at the airport:
the mother had an anxiety attack and i had to start bleeding *roll eyes upwards*
so mamma is nearly on the verge of tears and refusing to leave the airport even after the girl has gone past the security check [god knows why.. she's only going to be gone two weeks]... i'm standing sullenly against a pillar generally frowning and glaring at everyone and my father[poor man] is just waiting with this *women?! * look on his face
so i messaged laura and we left only after she messaged back that she was on the plane and my mother extracted sufficient promises from the air hostess that she would look after her daughter lol :)

i shouldn't make fun of my mom though, i wouldn't think it now, but i'd probably be as protective if i had a daughter to be protective of

.. so the latest unscheduled trip..gokarna :) have convinced the father [ my father's nice- if he cannot come up with a reasonable excuse as to why i cannot go, he lets me.. my mother on the other hand is less rational.. women...*shakes head in resignation*].. if work says ok i'm leaving thursday night.
..and here's the good news.. i might not have to go to delhi *big smile*... and the better news is that i might have to go to bombay . *praying*

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

kiran whacks herself over the head *whack* *whack* *whack*
my mom says that i do things very slowly...... she also says that i take after my father's side of the family

passport office - attempt no.3

so i woke up bright and early this morning [mostly because everyone forced me to go to sleep early last night]. made my way out to the passport office.. [the sunlight didn't hurt my eyes as much as it did yesterday] .. not that big a crowd today only about thirty people in line ahead of me... and that was just to get in... on a comparitive basis however i didn't wait too long. while waiting, this older couple comes up to stand behind me. no biggie. then we reach that part of the line where we lucky thingies get to sit for a bit. there's one empty chair left [which was mine] and i can hear the man hurriedly going 'kuthko' ' kuthko' to the woman *roll eyes upwards* i would have let her sit anyway, she's older *shrug*... the woman was a little better, she looked at me in askance at least. so she sat :) i sat :) and the man in front of me stood :).. he was a nice man too. old, muslim, he didn't smell and he helped me fix a chair that was broken [which i could very well have done on my own] so that i could sit. so i finally get in, and get into this never ending queue again. this time i was no.75... so i waited for about three hours. submitted my form and voila! my work is nearly done. the only thing left to do is collect my newly stamped 'emmigration check not required' passport in the evening .. see told ya i'd get it done in the end



*i was just reading this post over, reached about half way through[am not going to read anymore].. but i noticed that i pay absolutely no heed to grammar rules and tenses :)...i am aware of this, but i'm not going to change it..what to do with me?? :)]

Baby Kamal Posted by Hello

Monday, January 10, 2005

some things are not justifiable.. some things are not the end of the world
.. what ever did happen to my solid as rock morals?

the parents

my parents don't have an apparent vested interest in my life and remain generally uninvolved apart from making sure that i'm fed and realtively well rested and warm.. don't forget warm and sometimes mom tells me to brush my hair :),but apart from that, they pretty much let me do what i want .. which is just the way i like it.. except of course if my parents get it into their heads that there's something that they require me to do, they won't let up until it's done. mother seems to be on some sort of mission to make me independant, i know i can survive on my own.. i'm just not going to until i'm ready, which should be in a few months :).. so till then ..

i must remember...

.. that pester, pester, pester is in fact your very deviated way of saying that you love me and that you care about what i do with my life

...and this is the best

My mother's decided[very seriously] that the reason why God is sending tsunamis is because girls these days are wearing thong underwear. :)
my sojourn at the passport office was laughable at the least :).. brilliant as i am i ended up there at 11:45 [the office closes at 12:00].. i stood in line for about 10 mins contemplating whether or not i should bother wasting my time .. there were about 50 people ahead of me and the line looked like it was moving at the rate of 10 people/15mins... which meant i would be waiting for about forever.. so anyway i stood around a little longer when this police man or whatever he was comes out and starts to very rudely shoo people out of the way because some official had to take his car out and leave.the man even pushed a few of the male persons out of the way .. if he had touched me i would have screamed and yelled bloody murder simply because he was rude and annoying. so i was standing sufficiently out of the way, when this policeman decided that it was his moral duty to blare into my face that i should get out of the way. if my kannada was any better i would have shouted back at him.. but it isn't so i just kept quite and settled for dirty looks [which he did not miss]. i then got back into line only to find two minutes later [at 12:00 sharp] punctual as our government offices are, that the gates were firmly locked shut and everyone was asked to go home. so [fortunately for me, as i didn't want to stand there and wait anyway] i went away with a not much improved impression of our government servants.
some people [my parents if you have to know], think that if you forget something it's the end of the world.... it's not
ok so it turns out that i'm not going to visit brandi today. have to go to the passport office .. i forgot, so a sleepy eyed, dark circle under eyed me is in the process of making my way there...yes i'm late.. my father's response to that is to laugh in my face and say that i'm useless[ yes THAT'S going to speeden things up :)] and i don't know whether that's better or worse than my mother's lecturing... fortunately she's not here *widening smile*.. so see the important thing is that i get the job done :) .. till later then
k
... i miss brandi baby...i'm going to visit her.. and jo and prashanth, of course, tomorrow!.. oh no.. that means i have to get up early tomorrow.. earlier than 8 even... that like about a little past midnight for me.. hmm well i guess you do what you have to do..

of course right now instead of just brushing my teeth and going to sleep, i'm going to insist on watching lion king 1 1/2 :)

Sunday, January 09, 2005

....and somehow i think i had the better life
i think insinuated dirty humour is the funniest :)
i care about you....just not very much... so uncaring?... i don't think so.. the friends i make are few and far between i suppose..... screw the analysis of my people relations it grows tedious :) ...lets go watch the kumars at no. 47 instead :)

complaining about the cold

so i'm wearing this skirt, black less than ankle length socks and my grey jumper and sitting north east india style on the chair because that position seems the warmest. i would be wearing tracks, if i could find any and i seem to be buying clothes instead of just washing the ones i already have, because it's too darn cold to wash..[...edited content...]bother!,.. so cold SOO COLD..my only consolation is that i live in a sub tropical climate and that it could have been worse.. i mean what if i lived in canada or the uk or something [i'd never] but what if.... can't wait for spring [the first two weeks of february] warmer days ahead *anticipated warm summer smile*
smitten ...*smile*... and i don't even know the person... how unexpected... *smile*

Saturday, January 08, 2005

i do like my water hot :)
stuffed olives mmmm :)

things i have :)

i came to the conclusion today, that i have:
-bad hearing
-bad eyesight [maybe just lack of sleep]
-and a bad memory
places i want to go to in the very near future:
bombay
coorg
i wouldn't mind goa either i can wear my new bikini :D [ha! right]

places i don't want to go to but have to! :
delhi
..i would have liked to go to ooty tomorrow, even if i had to be on my own..

post birthday wishing

i don't want anything! i don't want to be in a relationship, i just want to be........... i wish i could love .. i wish , i wish , i wish :)...post birthday wishing

Friday, January 07, 2005

23 isn't that a pretty number ? *big smile*

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

i never want to die from lonliness.....everybody who loves me now please love me forever !


yes i'm thinking psycho chick. :)

k
i miss the girl who used to melt when a boy said something nice to her
i have a memory like a seive :)
memories :)

Monday, January 03, 2005

how i learned to identify a man... a real one that is
the following are things i noticed about boys i know:
-he makes sure that you're seen to and comfortable
-he makes sure that you walk on the inside of the road[emmanuel]
-he lets you walk ahead, doesn't ingnore you and act like you're not there just because his girfriend is or for whatever reason [satish did that for about two mins today until marlene said let her walk in front, because we walking in a shady neighbourhood]
-he doesn't make you cry, and even if he does he feels really really bad and makes it up :)
-he knows when to weild authority and when to show restraint and just let it go
-he goes to church because it makes his wife happy :)[my father]
-he stops half way through the journey turns around and goes back just to check that the girls riding behind are alright and still there [richie]
-he rides at 30 speed [even thought he's dying to go faster] just because one of the girls rides really really slow and he feels it's his job to make sure the girls are safe [neil]
-he wears this worried look and keeps them very close to himself because they're in a new place and he's the only boy with two girls he thinks he should protect [shanil]
-he doesn't let you ride home alone at 130 in the night [ruben did that- i think he was the girl :)]
-he drops you to a friends place after dark, even though it's out of his way just because you said pretty please [samir] *hug*

Men
Today, I saw a lady cry. My heart is broken.
We men have failed our women. We fathers have failed our sons.
-emmanuel rasquinah
for some people love is not only blind, it's mental
-satish nankani

:)

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Isabel Allende , Portrait In Sepia

i want that book...
k
dinner was quite terrible not to mention pointless, wonder if they're trying to poison me or make me kill myself.. guess we'll find out tomorrow.. if i'm still alive. boredom is taking it's toll and a foul mood seems like the appropriate thing. the fact that they're trying to freeze my fingers and toes off doesn't seem to help matters. air conditioner hah! an hour and a quarter and i'll be done *bright smile* then lets think about dragging the best friend out for coffee, if best friend is not with stupid boyfriend [who we are currently avoiding..][by we i mean me]... till then , lets freeze and let the foul mood fester *frown* *glare*
.....i miss my book :( guess the blog should suffice
k